be selfish.. ; 11:59 PM
i cant slp..
thinking of all this that is happening..
hope what i plan and told to my fren,
i will be able to go thru it..
thank you fren..
Labels: bleeding eyes cant be shut...
when i locked myself in the room... ; 9:21 PM
BREAKING DOWN IS THE THING I DO NOW..
WHY PEOPLE DON'T UNDERSTAND MY FEELINGS?
WHY CANT THEY AGREE ON WHAT I DECIDE?
WHY MUST I BE LIKE THIS?
WHY CANT I LISTEN TO HIM?
WHY CANT I LIVE HAPPILY NOW?
WHY CANT I BE ALONE?
WHY CANT I BE FREE?
WHY MUST I HAVE PROBLEMS?
WHY AM I A WEAK PERSON NOW?
WHY AM I BECOMING NEGATIVE LIKE LAST TIME?
WHY AM I A QUIET GUY AGAIN?
WHY DID I HAVE TO BE IN THIS SITUATION?
WHY ME!!!
Labels: tears may bleed..
im sorry... ; 8:15 PM
bby..
i still am loving you the way i love you when i first wanted you..
for the past few days i admit i have been getting jealous and moody alot..
jealous bout him and moody bcuz of him..
i get moody also bcuz you keep bringing up the past..
for example just now..
if you wanna know, you have left far more scars on me..
every words from you are just hurting me..
sometimes i get confused..
you say you love me but you keep hurting me..
its like you want to revenge me..
i know its hard for you to forget everything..
but like you say bby, if there's a will, there's always a way..
i have been trying my best to make you feel loved by me..
but u seemed to get mad over certain words that i say..
pls syg..
if you do love me, pls don hurt me by saying all that..
if you do love me, pls do trust me..
if you do love me, pls dont get too jealous..
im trying my best not to get too jealous..
you must also do the same and help me..
i dont you be frens but pls dont be too close..
since you know im jealousy too..
sayang..
abg masih cintakan ayg..
cinta yang sama dari detik abg berkenalan dgn ayg..
abg perlukan ayg..
abg tak kuat seperti dulu lagi..
abg perlukan kepercayaan ayg..
abg perlukan kasih sayang ayg..
abg perlukan ayg dlm hidup abg..
percayelah syg..
Labels: i love you always bby..
you know bby... ; 8:10 PM
i know i know.. ; 8:03 PM
helloh fellow blogger hopper reader!!
im fadzlee..hehe..lols!
okeyh2..what do i wanna say..
hmm..actually i dunnoe what to say..
what should i say guys?hee..ok i know stupid question..
hmm...pass few days..yeah pass few days..
for the pass few days, i have been busy with percussion and tarian..
(but thank goodness for cca fair, im just performing for percussion.)
try imagining i need to perform for both on the same event?
(pki baju tarian, main snare drum..hehe..funny or what?)
okeyh2..for percussion, i will be performing with the juniors..
they all okeyh-okeyh lah..but not up to standard yet..
n juniors, pls do be lively during the performance day..
i believe you guys can be like us..like u guys say, one soul..
oteyh juniors??hehe..Go Percussion Go!=))
next is bout me n my bby...
our love story has it ups and downs..
but to me, all of that is ujian for me..
i know i have to be strong no matter what happends..
i know i still loves you truly..the love i first had for u..
where i expressed my feeling towards u with the moon as our witness..
im sorie if i get too jealous when u talk bout someone..
i just feel demoralized..
okyeh enough of that..
what i know now is that i love you sincerely..
i need you always..
im weak without you..
you have taken half of my heart with you..
soo pls don leave me..
love you lots sayang..
and ty for giving me a chance..
love you bby girl..
Labels: go away bad dreams of mine..
i know i have made a terrible mistake.
and because mistake that i have made,
people around me are kecewe in me.
im sorie..i know people makes mistakes..
but i make a terrible and unimaginable mistake ever..
im sorie guys..
to my bby...
i am sorie for what i did..
i rilli regret it, i know u r the one i only love..
i dont know why all this happend..
i am glad that you can take me back into my life..
i wont do it again sayang..
i know how i rilli wanted you before, and i will always want you the way i wanted you..
i apologize once again to you my bby..
i realise that i felt empty and hollow without you..
i started to feel weak when im not with you..
i just want to let you know that i have realise how deep my love is for you..
i know no one can never replace you in my heart..
i need you yesterday, now and forever my bby..
i will never hurt you again..never..
i love you my bby..
i love you more then i love myself..
i truly do..
to kak ema..
thanx for being the one there to guide me and make me strong..
thanx for giving me the strength to decide on what i have to do..
thanx for understanding what i am going thru..
thanx for everything that you have done for me..
thanx for accepting me and treating me as ur adk..
and thanx for being happy for me and yana..
thanx kak..
to abg sim..
adk want to apologize for keeping it from you..
adk just dont want to make abg stress with the problems you are having with mine..
adk am sorie to make u kecewe in me..
adk sorie to have made all this wrongs..
adk realise that she is the girl, the girl that i rilli want..
adk will regret it if i were to lose her in my life..
adk want to thank abg for advising me..
adk want to thank abg for lecturing me..
and adk want to thank abg for everything that you have done for me..
thank you abg..
to fat2,rai2 and atik..
i am sorie to do this to yana..
i know im in the very wrong..
i dunnoe what happend to me..
i wanna to thank you guys for not hating me..
i know i kecewe kan u guys..
i rilli am sorie..
i know without me and you guys, yana wouldnt be strong..
i realise how much i love her now my frens..
i want to thank you guys for being there for her when i did this stupid things..
i rilli hope we will be frens till eternity..
im sorie once again guys..
im sorie..
ya allah..
aku telah melakukan kesilapan yang besar yang telah melukakan ramai hambamu..
aku mohon ampun ya allah..
aku hanya hambamu yang lemah yang membuat kesilapan..
aku akan menggunakan kesilapan ini sebagai pengajaran untuk diriku..
aku inginkan petunjukmu untuk ku meneruskan hidup yang diredhaimu..
amin amin yaarabbalaalamin...
Labels: everyone makes mistakes
im sorie..
im just stressed up..
with lots of things..
i need to be alone..
i dont wanna hurt you anymore..
i need ur help..
berilah petunjuk kepada hamba mu yang lemah ini..
aku perlukan petunjuk mu..
Labels: pls don hate me...
