to berry <3.. ; 7:58 PM
i hope you will be reading my blog still..because it will all be about us and us and us..i know that i have hurt you deep by the post i posted before i went to China..but that was a day before i went..on the day that i wanna go, if u want to know, i feel like hugging u..not letting you go..i cried on my way to the plane..regretting..because i wanna tell u that i love you and to wait for me to be back..because i wanna patch things up with you..but im scared i will stop u from having your happiness with him..every single day..every hours..every mins..and seconds of me in china..i have never stopped thinking of you..ur pics everywhere in my vision..ur voice everywhere in my ears..ur memories with me in my heart..im just afraid to break up ur life now..looking at you happy with your new boy..ur pics with him..ur happiness with him..BUT...i will never give up on waiting for you..i will never love anyone else more then i love you..i will never forgive myself till you talk to me and forgive me..i will never be happy like before until im back with you..i will never dance till you are back with me..i will never move on in my life..i will never fall in love ever again..i will never..never..BECAUSE..my heart is still calling to you..missing you..and loving you always..as times goes by, i just love u more as i miss you even more..i know that you are really hating me now..i see it in your blog and i can feel the hatred you are having towards me..you know my story..my past..about me being used..its repeating..i know you know what..i have told her off..i just want you..the girk that make me realise my talents and happiness..and making me realise that im a good photographer..a good dancer..and you are the first girl that watch me perform..and you made it there just for me..no one knows the feelings beyond it..i know there is a tiny bit of love for me in that heart of yours..and i promise i will make it grow again..i wont stop loving and waiting for you..MEMORIES..i still remember the day i first saw u dancing..i dunnoe how my eyes caught you..maybe bcuz u forget your steps..bcuz of that imperfections in you that i fall for you..my eyes just cant stop looking at you and my mind cant stop thinking of you ever since..my heart feels peaceful and my world full of silence when you are by my side..ever since that day, i cant stop looking forward to see you..and i was lucky to see you everday in the bus..the cute lil girl hiding behind her specs..clever looking girl that keep thinking.."is this guy looking at me?.."yeap i was and loving the vision..i kept asking my fren about you..and i just dunnoe what to do whenever i see you..during your dance practice in cemta, i wont miss the chance to look at you..even a glimpse of your sight make me feel peaceful and silence..even when i know im clapping one hand at that point of time..with my cap..you recognised me..again you were asking at yourself.."is this guy looking at me?..."and yeap i was..every move and steps u r dancing..i still remember the day when i actually waited for you..then we saw each other in the bus to go home..my fren asked me who was i waiting for..i told him i was waiting for ren..but actually its u..but im happy when i saw u in the same bus that i took to go home..the shyness in you and me makes us grows fonder for each other..i miss all that days..the story of us..then we started working together..memories at bus stops..first valentine with a girl at a bus stop..with a love letter written and a rose..the first bdae gift i got for you..i wont and will never forget all that..the way you reacted when u saw it..i can see your happiness then..i love you with all my heart and i will never let it go..my trust for you is still here in me..MOMENTS..the moments that we had with each other just cant be forgotten nor erased..its the only moment that people can see my true happiness and my smile..i didnt smile alot when im not with you..you make me learn all that..you are like an angel sent for me..and i wont want to let go the angel from my heart ever..i will never erase any moments of us and keep waiting..i know that you still have that bit of love..even if there isnt..i will still think that there is..bcuz only our love cant make me survive now..nothing else can..i need you..my dear true lover,its been 3weeks im gone and we have not been contacting each other..and now when im back, u r also in silence.i dunnoe maybe u r mad at me.but i wont give up on you..ever..i just want to tell you that i will be waiting and loving you with every bit of my heart..never to stop..my life is incomplete without you..it full of loneliness and not as colourful as before..i miss ur voice..i miss ur smile..i miss your beautiful eyes..i miss ur everything..its hard for me to face this..but its my fault..i will be waiting.waiting always...i better get going now..my laptop is wet..i shouldnt be crying if im happy for you..i love you..i love you still Nur Fardiyana bte Sulaiman..i hope you will let me in..i missed you.. 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