it happend again.. ; 9:01 PM
todae i woke up full of smiles..want to know why??bcuz the person that i love called and woke me up..asking if we could have breakfast outside as theres no food at home..i rushed to the bathe room and shower..rushed to my room and iron my clothes and get ready..HERE COMES IT..after im ready...Miss Jill gave me a call..saying i cant go for the Da Vinci..as i just reach singapore for 6 days..just one day left eyy..sadness filled my heart..thought i could spent my day wit her at the Science Center..MET LOVEas per normal, i text her only when i have reach the usual meeting place.. =)then she came down..as per normal she tickle my hips..it reminds me of the past but now its just a friend to friend thingi..then off we went to saffron and ate..then we went to interchange to meet Khai..forgot bout joe..called him and waited for him..while waiting for him..Khai, Love and me went to Tamp1 to walk2..then Khai want to eat..we proceed to macdonalds to eat..of course Love and me never eat..we accompanied Khai only..then here comes Joe and off we went to Jurong East..im sorie that i wasnt in the mood in the train..listening to those songs..sitting in a train..reminds me of the first outing we had..looking for things for arts under the stars..yes i was crying..im sorie..reach there not that early..waited for the rest and..SAD PARToff they went together2 to Science Center..like yesterday..i felt left out..but what to do..i walk3 alone2 sad2...(this oia really is changing my happy life to a sad one..)AFTER 3HRSthey came back..my PANTAT is flat..hehe..then Khai and Rai went to meet atik..Love and me went to take the train..we want to eat Pastamania but dunnoe at where..TRAINafter a long decision making...Parkway Parade we went to eat at..she looked sleepy in the train..let her lie on my shoulder..(as she was sleeping on my shoulder..it reminds me of the past..i wanted to kiss her forehead but..i remind myself..im her friend and she is with him..soo i take that back..)dropped off at Bedok inter and guess what??saw Abg and Kakak!missed them soo muchie2!slm and hugged them..then off we went to PP taking 31..kakak ask me..i and yana dah okeyh ke..i was saying no..it hurts looking at his name in Love hp..texting each other..i know im a friend of Love and shouldnt feel angry or anything..now i know how u feel kak..and thanx Khai for giving me words of advice..and thanx on agreeing with me that Love is getting more and more beautiful..PPwe terlajak one bus stop..hehe..soo we walked back to PP..Love was busy texting him..i pretend to be happy..cuz i need to hide those feelings away..then we went straight to Pastamania..we chose a seat outside the shop..where no one os seating..then went and order..was damn hungry at that moment of time..then food came..(dah lapar bkn nak mkn tau..)we took pics..i just love taking pictures of Love..i dunnoe why i can take beautiful pictures of hers but not other people..ok back to story..we ate and ate till we are damn full..=)then after eating, took pictures again..then we talk about our trips..after that took 31 back..BUScontinued chatting about our trips..watch her video dancing..looking at the videomakes me feel like tearingyou were talking about the videomy eyes were locked at youwhen u look at me, i look back at the videoim happy to see u happythen we talk about the pics she took at science center..she asked if she can be a model..i stared her eyes..not blinking..told her.. "i said yes u can in the past and my answer will never change.."then drop off one bus stop after schl and change to 9..continued talking..then drop off at afghan..went toi2 first..then sent her home..at that moment when i was standing in front of you..it felt like we are still together..i was about to kiss ur hand and forehead but im not urs i said..then when u walk off..i wanted to say i love you..but i know i shouldnt..then i proceed home..to Love..i know u dont like to use my money..but the things we are doing are some of the plans i had in mind to celebrate our monthsary..but i know its too late as there is no more US..i spent things sincerely for you..i know u dont want to feel terhutang budi but i don mind..remember the princip i told u before in the past?my money is ours and ur money is urs?u know i kept that princip cuz i still take u as my Love..thats why i feel what a friend shouldnt feel..thats why i care what a friend sometimes dosent care..it makes me happy to know u r happy..thats why i keep saying.."you are happy right..?"i just want to make myself happy by still thinking we are still the US we are before..cant i..?till here love..guys!there are pics to be uploaded soon..wait up yeah!i dunnoe if she still loves me..bcuz yest and todae..i heard a word from her mouth that gives me hope..but i dunnoe if she accidently said it..when i was disturbing her i hear.."b tkmo..my mouth sakit uh.."when i pinched her mouth in the bus.."b my neck sakitlah.."when i wanna strangle her from the back fooling around..i know she say it maybe she terlepas ckp..soo i just kept my feelings of happiness away..but i will always love her and treat her the way i treated her in the past..thats all..Labels: my pain so real..
